I needa vent.
I feel like I’m in a stand still. I know no one ever said this was supposed to be easy, but theonly thing that isnt easyabout it is living the the bordom and annoyances. People asking me to help them with something then not being there to help themselves. Then not being there to look over the work I just did myself. AND THEN asking me to have someone else to look over it, whom really doesn’t have anything to gain from it.
All while not being compensated narly enough. Superstore, while part time, pays a better wage than mine. Not that there’s anything wrong with Superstore, but when clients are told I’m worth 8 times what I’m paid, it kinda leave me feeling under appreciated. Of course, they’re looking into ways that I can do more work, so that a raise could be possible… if I’m not doing enough now, what is enough? I’m doing way more than what was involved in the first place.
But I don’t feel like I should complain right now, because I was albe to create a big mess of paperwork that just isn’t going though anywhere. So I’m at a standstill. I can’t do anything, and I can’t do anything about that.
Tonight, I clean my space, and I meditate. I haven’t done that in a while - maybe that will help.